Here and Now, in your presence
I have experienced every sensation of sin,
I have pursued every desire of the flesh.
Often I am drunk on the wine of darkness,
I have fulfilled all the cravings,
Yet here I am, greatly dissatisfied-
and desperate still.
I have gone after everything I perceived beautiful
I have lusted for mortal bodies,
I have danced to tunes of thrills-
Tunes that lasts no more than a night,
I have burnt in the desire for things that pleased my sight
I have intoxicated my faith
and now my spirit is hollow and empty.
I have travelled the paths of lawlessness
I have trudged on the paths of shameful deeds,
The highways and byways of evil is worn out by my swift feet
I have spat venoms, and fought fearlessly against anything good.
I have dined and danced with the devil
I have swam in the ocean of silly cheap excitements…
But, still here I am, thirsty
The filth I am, to your presence I come
No sacrifice I bring, only Your blood I claim.
For years and years, I’ve been high on the smokes of shame
For years and years, doing evil has been my aim
But today I come
For years and years, flesh has dictated my desires,
But today I surrender.
For years and years, when I was a slave of darkness
The world scorned and spat on me
But this moment, Jesus, this very moment right now
When at your feet I bow;
This moment, Jesus, this very moment right here at your presence is all I have been yearning for
And now that I am finally home, I am greatly fulfilled and whole.
Thank you Jesus for seeing beyond the thick of my filth.